The Toy I Expected to Love vs. the One That Took Over

One Discord link turned into three toys, an overly ambitious first night, and two very different lessons in pleasure. Ferri required some experimentation, while Lush 4 showed her how good surrendering control could feel.

One eventful day, I woke up feeling extra excited. It had been a while since I had felt that lovely little tingle, and I happened to be hanging out in a smut and ASMR Discord server. It wasn’t a toy server, but we talked about plenty of smutty books, so I asked the women there if they had a favorite toy they absolutely swore by. One of them dropped a link to the Lovense Ferri, and down the rabbit hole I went. 🐇

My first order was the Ferri, Lush 4, and Mission. Whoops. 😏 I may have gotten a little too excited. When the box arrived, I was practically vibrating with anticipation. My plan was simple: take the Ferri and Lush 4 out for some public play, then come home and finish with the Mission. There was just one tiny problem.

The Ferri was the one I had to experiment with the most. 😂 As a BBW, I found that positioning made a huge difference. It worked best for me in cowgirl position, a sumo squat, or while dropping very low when dancing.

For the kind of effortless public play I had imagined, it needed more adjusting than I expected. And unless I planned to spend the whole night squatting like an Olympic athlete, I knew I had to keep experimenting with the fit.

The Lush 4 clicked with my body much faster. The first time I took it into Control Roulette, I matched with someone who clearly knew what they were doing. I quickly learned that surrendering control could be very rewarding. By the time I got a break, I was lying on my back, stunned, trying to process what had happened.

Over the past year, the Lush 4 has evolved into more of an edging toy for me. My favorites have changed too. I’ve become a serious fan of rabbit vibrators, and while I do have a current favorite, that one is staying my little secret. 🤭

That first order taught me something important: even great toys can feel completely different depending on your body, the position, and what kind of experience you want. One thing has not changed: blind friend requests still get blocked. You've been warned. 💋